I mean, I would choose not to diegene all alone.
There’s bot a number of gals I’ve bot deeply infatuated with overheen the years whom I’ve worked with te various productions. Even some famous ones. Ally Sheedy, Gina Gershon, singer and Prince protГ©gГ© Jill Jones, Jennifer Jason Leigh. A number of gals.
Actress Gina Gershon
Of course who knows for certain what wasgoed going thru their minds, but I’m pretty certain there wasgoed a point te time with each of thesis gals where I had a slok. If I only had some spel! Just a little bit!
Faces On The Wall – Personages Photo
Faces On The Wall Personages Photo From Top and Across To Bottom: Karen Fineman, Jeff Goldstein, Patrick Cassidy, Laird Fenwick, David Way, Gina Gershon, Mújol Berman, Cecile Bagdadi, Linda Morris, Jane Oppenheimer, (writer/director) Tina Landau, Legendary Theater and Filmrolletje Producer Hillard Elkins who produced the vertoning, Claudia Lonow, Marc Copage.
Jill Jones And Prince
Then there wasgoed the woman I met on Craigslist. She wasgoed an aspiring singer and songwriter.
I had waterput an ad up on Craigslist looking for a songwriting collaboration fucking partner. I had just gotten stood up by one of the ‘Fly Chicks’ from the popular TV demonstrate вЂњIn Living ColorвЂќ which wasn’t a very fly thing to do. Wij had bot talking about collaborating on writing songs together however I vereiste admit my rente ter hier ran deeper than just that. Some of the Fly Women would come te from time to time to take classes at a dance studio I wasgoed working at and I got to be friendly with one of them. Just another gal on my long list of infatuations. So mij and this ‘Fly Chick’ set up a time to meet and she totally stood mij up. She didn’t call or anything. The next day I had flowers delivered to the vertoning along with a note. I still didn’t hear anything back from hier. I’ve truly got to pauze this habit of sending women flowers. Especially to the ladies that reject mij!
What’s up with that? Somebody should just waterput a big caudal P on my forehead! I’ve given a number of women flowers and roses when I shouldn’t have. I wonder if it stems from some deep psychological need and desire to attempt to build up my mother’s love and acceptance on some level or some zuigeling of BS along those lines? There wasgoed this one dance production I wasgoed ter where I talent every woman ter the display roses. I had to skip a meal a day for the next month and a half! What a dufus!
Yeah, that’s mij!
Oh well. So much for fly damsels.
Fly Damsels from the TV voorstelling ",Ter Living Color",
So mij and the gal I met on Craigslist exchanged demo tapes and talked on the phone to arrange for a time to meet. She seemed flawlessly común when I talked to hier on the phone and judging by the gauze she sent mij she had talent! So I get to hier place, I knock on hier ingevolge, and when the wegens opened wasgoed pleasurably astonished spil she wasgoed finta effortless on the eyes.
About a minute or two of petite talk and the next thing I know she’s reaching for my Johnson! Before I know it she’s down te vuurlijn of mij on hier knees just going to town on my little soldier! Or big spil the case may be. Next thing I hear a kind begin to sob ter another part of the apartment. She says, вЂњDon’t worry, that’s just my two year old.вЂќ and excuses herself to tend to the child. She had never mentioned to mij previously she had a child. So this cycle repeats itself several times. She’s on hier knees doing hier thing, the kind gets restless where she has to tend to it, and back and forward. With each interruption it became more and more difficult for mij to proceed. Next she tells mij she likes getting smacked around and having hier hair pulled. This wasgoed some crazy s*%t! I had literally just met this woman and now she’s ter vooraanzicht of mij down on hier knees asking mij to pull hier hair and smack hier around! The next time she excuses herself I calmly slipped out the pui doorheen, hopped into my car and got the heck out of Dodge! Or te this case Westelijk Los Angeles. Lord knows I could have used what she wasgoed suggesting. It wasgoed finta relieving and felt finta nice. It wasgoed my very first practice with this kleintje of thing. It just got too bizarre tho’ and began to feel a bit dangerous! I straks found out she had a Methamphetamine addiction. She still looked good so I would imagine she hadn’t bot using for all that long. To this day I’m wondering if perhaps I should have called child protective services or something. It certainly ranks up spil one of the strangest things that’s everzwijn happened to mij. I hope both mother and child came out of it alright. Being a meth maniac is no joke!
It wasgoed finta a strange encounter.
Artist Salvador Dali
The only gf I’ve everzwijn had, aside from Andrea when wij were 11 or so who I’d never even kissed, wasgoed this French gal I wasgoed watching for a geschreven period of time on an extended stay to Europe. I had originally travelled overseas spil part of the personages ter a theater production where wij performed at The Edinburgh Festival Fringe which is known spil the largest kunst’s festival ter the world. The demonstrate wasgoed called “The Steven Weed Display” written by successful hollywood screenwriter, Shawn Schepps of “Encino Man” fame and directed by Fax Bahr and Adam Puny creators of the popular sketch comedy television showcase “Mad TV”.
Mad TV – No Particular Reason, I Just Thought This Wasgoed A Funny Skit One Of My Friends Posted Featuring ‘Mad TV’
Come to think of it, I think Adam wasgoed ter the ensemble with mij and Fax directed the showcase. It wasgoed a excellent personages and wij had some wonderful times together. Bryan Cranston of “Violating Bad” fame wasgoed ter the personages spil well. Bryan wasgoed spil awesome then spil he is now! When wij very first began working together I had him pegged spil a Robin Williams type. He would never repeat himself te voorstelling on any given evening. Bryan turned out to be Robin Williams, and much, much more spil evidenced by his superb work thru the years! The vertoning won a Dramalogue award for best ensemble personages. Superb times with some excellent people!
",The Steven Weed Showcase", Lade Times Clipping
Pictured above from left to right: Bryan Cranston, Deborah Thalberg, John Zarchen, Susan Saiger, Paul Friedman, Adam Petite, Kathy, Jongste Schick, Shawn Schepps and Marc Copage.
So after our run te Edinburgh I travelled to Paris and met this French gal. She wasgoed a certified nymphomaniac! Sweet!
But wouldn’t it be just my luck that she wasgoed ter counseling all the time I wasgoed watching hier. Hier therapist prescribed abstinence spil part of hier treatment. No lovemaking what-so-ever! Excellent! Wij did get into some other rather kinky adventures, but your regular, traditional, old fashioned, sexual intercourse wasgoed not one of the items on the spijskaart. All the beautiful women ter this city and she’s the gal I pick out. Good! She wasgoed a well known choreographer te Paris and evidently hier addiction had gotten hier into some trouble. One thing I could say for this gal is that when she set hier mind to doing something, she’d do it! She also just hardly spoke five words of English so unnecessary to say the relationship did not last long. It wasgoed around this time that I began to feel that I wasgoed just plain cursed spil far spil women and relationships were worried.
I’ve even attempted online dating with no luck or success. Pursuing thesis gals online can become a total time job ter itself. Reading profiles. Attempting to find that right match. Thinking of something clever to write to them that may never even get looked at. My guess is most of thesis gals are inundated with hundreds of emails from guys and many of them just like the attention. Then when I became one of those people whose profile picture doesn’t even look like them anymore I abandoned the idea fully.
I wonder how they do it? How do people get together to form a relationship and possibly build a life together? I see couples ter the park and I wonder, how did they meet? Just how did they get together? It’s such a mystery to mij. I observe my neighbor walk up the stairs with his wifey and two children. One child ter his arms and the other by the palm. His wifey by his side. This is something that ter all likelihood will never be a part of my reality. At least te this lifetime. Perhaps it just wasn’t meant to be. “For better or for worse. Te sickness and ter health. Till death do us part.” I always thought those were such amazing words! It’s an outstanding concept! I mean, I would choose not to diegene all alone. With nobody. I would choose not to go out that way.
My Dear Friends Scott And Caara On Their Wedding Day
So I’ve taken up ballroom and social fucking partner dancing just to feel some kleintje of closeness and connection with a woman. But when the song is overheen, that’s the end of it. It’s what wij both know is coming and expect. And my dance fucking partners and I are comfy ter that. And that’s just fine with mij.
Marc & Heather – Waltz Dance
To quote a line from the movie, вЂњMartyвЂќ, portrayed by the wonderful character actor Earnest Borgnine, вЂњI’ve chased after enough women ter my life. I’ve gotten hurt enough. I don’t want to get hurt no more.вЂќ
",Marty", Starring Oscar Winner Earnest Borgnine
Most of the women I’ve mentioned through this Four part chapter are joyfully married now with children of their own. I’m sure I’m nothing more to them than a distant and fading memory, if even that. However, I reminisce and look back on each and every one of my unrequited loves with fond memories. Everyone except the speed weirdo I met on Craigslist that wished mij to smack hier around that is. I can’t help but wonder how my life might be different if something more would have developed from any one of my many infatuations. How being with the right woman might have effected my life. Even my professional career. I can’t help but wonder.